At first I was waking up at the same time I did when the studio was open, 3:45am. The problem with this is that I was then working until 4:30pm when my husband got home. I didn’t know how to structure my day to be productive. I would just wake and work… I then started to use my workouts to help me organize my day. If I joined a mid-day virtual workout, I would give myself a little longer to sleep – maybe until 5:30 or 6am and I prioritized the tasks to get done before class. If I was going on a long run at 6am, I prioritized my body – what it needed to perform its best for 8-10miles. This means going to bed a little earlier and getting up at 4:30, brewing my coffee, taking my time with my mobility routine, going to the bathroom? and then truly enjoying the process of the run.Turns out that all my private sessions and my daughter’s school work fit in nicely with this approach. Margot and I even have a standing afternoon reading session that has been tremendous for my sanity.
Having no insight on how long any of this would last, I was quick to lose my patience. I was frustrated with having to home school, making difficult decisions concerning our coaches, learning what the best approach for us would be to provide virtual coaching, how my husband viewed my working from home… I was frantic trying to figure everything out without letting people down. But I’ve learned that that’s impossible. I learned to give myself the space to be patient with situations, myself, and with other people, otherwise I was bound to implode. When something happens that shortens my fuse, I don’t react. I allow myself to feel the frustration and I give myself the space to move past it. The reality is that I am the problem solver. It’s the position I’ve created for myself, and even though these circumstances are not ones I’ve chosen, they are what I’ve been dealt. I know I have everything I need to thrive. Sometimes it takes patience to tap into that.
With family, with clients, with coaches, with Angela & Jessica… For professional development, for board meetings, for fundraisers… You can zoom me in the morning, you can zoom me in the night…
Jeepers Crow, if there were ever a time to learn to let go. I may not have control over the situation, but I do have control over how it affects me. I’m learning to let go and become one with ‘we’ll see’. Angela and I are very fortunate to have such an incredible team who is willing to move forward with us although the path is tough to see. And of course summer camps are cancelled, but this time ‘WTF!’ is not what came to mind. It was a simple, ‘OK, we’ll figure it out’.
An old dog can learn a new trick
Holy manoly did I have to learn a lot to get our virtual classes up and running. It was so important to us that we maintain the integrity of our in-person coaching and with that comes a lot of tech details that are just foreign to me. We figured it out though and I commend our team for stepping into the virtual realm with us.
Who I count on, and who counts on me
I’m always surprised to get a random message from a friend. Whether it’s hello, or they need help with something, or checking to see how I’m doing… for some reason I’m almost shocked by the fact that they were thinking of me. I know that sounds silly and a bit deprecating, but it’s the honest truth. I am constantly thinking about the people in my life and part of me would love a telepathic connection so they could know just how much. When I drop a line and the connection is made, I’m thrilled. When they drop a line, I almost don’t know what to do with myself… lol This whole experience has really pointed this out to me. I consume myself with concern for others and tend to think that I don’t need much from anyone.
But what I’ve learned is that I count just as much on those who count on me… it may seem for different reasons, but it all counts and it all matters.
If you told me on March 23 that we would not reopen the studios for 2-3 months, I would have panicked. Now that we’re almost 10 weeks in, I can’t believe how fast it has gone. Somehow the weekends still feel like weekends, and Mondays still feel like Mondays and I can’t believe June has arrived. As crazy and stressful as all this has been, there is a lot that I cherish from this time. Mostly, spending every day with my daughter. We visited my mother in law on Mother’s Day and spent the afternoon outside, 6’ apart. My daughter and I were cuddling on the lounge chair and my mother in law said ‘It’s so nice to know you two still want to cuddle even after all the time you spend together.’ haha. It’s true though. She is still my favorite and I am very lucky to have had her company through all this. Within each one of these lessons lies a hundred more, I’m sure. Even amidst the urgent problem solving and decision making, there has been a sort of global ‘twix moment’ that I can appreciate. My heart hurts for all of those who have been sick and of course for those who have lost their lives. And in honor of all of those who have put themselves at risk to help others and fight the spread of this virus, I am grateful for this time, this gut check. I am incredibly fortunate to have my health, my family, my business, and my community. This is not lost on me.